Berger Rond - Izanami (pour Alexandra Fol) - Instrumental

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Izanami (for Alexandra Fol). First, I have to acknowledge and send thanks to the composer and musician Alexandra Fol who have made the month of September 2011 a little less gloomy for me in a year of personal disasters. This is my first professional commission after, what I would evaluate as 10 years of quality music composition.
http://alexandrafol.blog.com/
http://www.codesdacces.org/2010/03/09/alexandrafol/

This piece ends up on my album Elle avait raison Hathor (2012) under a song format with dense Laura Kilty vocal layers.
http://www.freakywaves.com/bergerrond/fr/node/395

It is my largest instrumentation yet and it took longer than usual since I was learning a new software (Ardour). For the same reason, all sorts of happy accidents were created, some slightly shifting the sound of the recordings used, making harmonies possible with an organ composition (Hope of Dawn by Ana Paola Santillan Alcocer as performed by Alexandra Fol), others making the repetitions less tangible perhaps (nothing is of the same length anywhere). Anyway, more than ten violins, several pianos, two harps, two organs (one by Brahms, yes) and percussions. Everything is recomposed w patterns that are also longer than usual.

C'était facile d'
aimer au départ
Puis, je
me suis
sentie de plus
en plus
mal
à l'ai..
se

dans une relation
inversée
Je ne voulais pas
d'enfants
avec
lui

Un semblant d
'êt' en ER'ROR

Je
me croyais
libre et
ouvert
à tous les
possibles

Soudainement (une)
grande
noirceur grandissait en moi...

J'ai vu
les ténèbres
dans un
cauchemar,
elles
prennent la
forme :
un cylindre
brunâtre et verdoyant

Il tourne dans le
vide à la
vitesse horrifiante
d'
une :
tension abjecte

Ce que
l'on
devrait
accepter
de voir en soi,
pour mieux éviter

Nous étions ensemble
des rêveurs sauvages,
montés l'un par
l'autre, sur
not'
propre définition

au temps de notre colère
Se limiter à l'une seule
lui semblait injuste

La fatigue de
ne s'entendre
que sur certains,
ceux voulus
défaits

J'ai vu là
Grâce pendant
sa colère
la plus rageuse
Il
aurait voulu
continuer
ainsi

Toujours
en bousculant les
événements

Je me
contentais de me
laisser
porter par le
vent au
fruit des
hasards

Ils
s'amènent
en
dehors
de
ma volonté

Nous étions encore
dans notre
force,
nous ne
l'avions pas
choisie

déformée au
fil................

du temps
cette force c'était
oublier d'
évoluer
pendant [...]

Il s'
agissait
du résultat
d'un
culte
malsain

Voilà en quoi
nous
accomplissons
ce qui nous
appartient si
peu

Nous détruison
s parce que
nous
aimons
trop
reconstruire

Nous pensions
vaincre
nos différends
Ils se sont
imposés
plus
importants que nous

pour.. les aut'

...

It was easy to
love first
Then, I
made myself
felt more
and more
un..
easy

in one relation
reversed
I didn't want
children
with
him

A pretended being
I
believed it was
free and
opened
to all
possibilities

Suddenly (one)
ages old
blackness growing in me...

I have seen
darkness
in a
nightmare,
they all
take the
form :
one cylinder,
brown and turning green

It is turning in
emptiness under an
horrifying speed :
an abject tension

What we
should
accept
to see in oneself
to avoid

We were together,
wild dreamers,
build one by
the other on
our
own definition

on time with our anger
To limit oneself to the only
It is felt
unjust

The exhaustion of
never reaching agreement,
only an uncertain
period
when wanted
undone

I have seen there
the grace wanted
his anger
the most furious one
He
would had wanted
to go on
this way

Always
by bumping into these
events

I only
contented myself by
letting the
wind,
inclined to
the fruit of
accidents

They both
bring themselves
outside
We we were still
in our
strength
we didn't
choose
hit

deformed by
a wire................

at the time
when
this strength
forgot
too
'cause
evolving is
so long

It was
the result
of a
pernicious cult

Here in what
we end,
accomplished
and got made
is
our own
this little

We thought about
winning
our differences
They all
had imposed themselves,
more
important than us

for..the other'

Cover (front)